This song spoke volumes to me as Byron and I were quickly approaching the legal stage of our separation. Matthew's album had just been released and this song brought me to my knees and continually filled me with guilt and dread of the life Madison was going to be subjected to. It was that raw guilt that made me realize that all was not said and done, and that huge things could (and little did I know would) happen to drastically change our situation for the better. In the end, Madison needs her daddy and I need my husband.
That being said, I thought I might need to publicly announce our near and upcoming future as a family. Byron will likely return to the U.S. by the end of April. He will return to Alaska since that is his duty station. We were expecting a curtailment (basically leaving Alaska sometime this year) but as Army plans tend to do, that changed. Byron will come here to Ohio for the month of June and then we will drive back to Alaska together at the end of June. We will likely be there for the next year and a half or so. Baby is due in September, and we are excited about starting this next chapter as a family of 4.
It's not a long, wordy blog today. However, it is a testament to how far God has brought us in the past two years. I am so grateful that when we don't have the ears or heart to listen to what people tell us that we were given ears to hear music. And I'm grateful that Matthew West's music spoke so strongly to me that I didn't give up. Bring on the next chapter. We're ready!
Well, Mom found her a new place to liveAnd Dad found him a new girlfriendLooks like every- body's moving onAnd it's, "Hey, look on the bright side kid,Now you've got two ChristmasesAnd it's every other weekend from now on"Yeah, but all I want is the way it wasWhen love would always last foreverAnd families stayed togetherBack to the day before two housesWhen they held my hands when I was littleBefore I got caught in the middleSomewhere in between two houses
'Cause these two houses sure don't feel like homeWide-eyed wonder grows up fastTrust is shot and nothing lastsAnd I'm thinking maybe it was all my fault[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/two-houses-lyrics-matthew-west.html ]And will I ever get back toThe innocence that I once knewBefore that Summer turned into FallWhen I close my eyes, I go back in time
I heard about a love that never leavesSo I'm asking you to show meI'm talking to You down here on my kneesFeels like You've always known me
When love would always last for- everAnd families stayed togetherBack to the day before two housesYou were holding my hand when I was littleYou were there when I was in the middleSomewhere in between two housesThese two housesThese two housesBut tonight my heart has finally found a home
